Bittersweet Memories

Bittersweet Memories

It's after midnight.
I can not sleep.
The night is warm.
I'm alone and I feel lonely.
In such moments I think back to you...
Standing on my balcony, I look at the stars.
It's a dark night.
No Moon!
But lots of stars.
In front of me I see the constellation "Scorpio"
My star sign!
Your star sign!
If I see it, I think even more about you.
The red star that shines so brightly, is called "Antares"
But I also know the second name, that is used in Asia and whisper it into the night
"Nakago..."
This name burns in my heart.
For me it's more, than just a name of a star.
I know your face!
I know your voice!
I know your lips!
But I don't know you ...
I thought, I know you.
We both are very alike.
We are both alone and have wounded hearts, which no one can heal.
I'm so sorry, that I couldn't save you.
You needed me, but I couldn't help you...
Please forgive me!
The only one, I have of you - are my memories and this blue pearl.
My memories of you, are so bittersweet
You were always with me.
Day and Night!
We were always together!
Maybe, I had not yet realized, that I was in love with you...
And still secretly do!!!
Oh, a shooting star!
"I wish..."
No!
That's my secret!
But I wish for you, that you're happy now!
I miss you...
I wish I could see you again, to tell you, that I don't hate you.
That I forgive you.
That...I love you!
That I'll never forget you!
You will always be in my heart!
Exactly how these bittersweet memories!
But before I go to sleep again, I look once again to "Antares" and see, how bright he glows!
A tear glistens on my cheek...and I smile
"Good Night, Nakago!"